28 Oct 2024 Anxious I

 28 Oct 2024

Boss ping a message to report weekly updates in group chat. Managed to dodge many months off the radar without any updates. I Guess Boss is reminded of me either by someone/something. The first reaction was negative. Slight panic. Wondering how to respond quickly. Immediately want to respond to Boss. In the end, tried to pull myself back. Think of how to respond. Respond sufficiently. 

Think of what the Boss wanted. Phrased it as what the Boss wanted. Responded in 2 lines. The boss gave a positive emoji. 

Thinking back on the months I've been with Boss, Actually Boss always increased my activities when Boss pinged me. Never knew I was so affected by Boss. Every single action/movement/statement/thoughts that the Boss shows will immediately kickstart a thinking chain of events in my mind on how to preempt the Boss's behaviors and reactions. Boss always says I overthink. But I am always right at the end of the day. Or I will become right. So therefore Boss is very predictable. Yet, I always put in a lot of effort to think and predict. 

~ Anxiousssssol